♥ happy 7th :)) ♥

In my heart, there is you
Who for me is an angel
In my heart, there is you
Who for me is like a pearl
In my heart there’s a place
To you who I shall never replace

In my heart there’s a maze
To you who I shall always trace
In my heart there’s a treasure
To you who I shall be my pleasure
In my heart there’s love
To you who need to be love

In my heart there’s appreciation
To you who will be my inspiration
In my heart there’s pressure
To you who I shall assure
In my heart there’s no regret
To you who I never forget

In my heart there’s mystery
To you who will not put mw in misery
In my heart there’s faith
To you who will hold my fate
In my heart there’s celebration
To you will have a good collaboration

In my heart there’s no pain
To you who will not let it remain
In my heart there’s reality
To you who is everything I see
In my heart there’s sincerity
To you who will be with me eternally
In my heart there’s joy
To you who I really enjoy

There must be you who must own my heart
Or else it will be torn apart
There is you who is always in my dreams
Where I repair your broken wings
There is you who I always think of
And I must never turn you off
There is you who shall feel my loving arms
So that you must not go to other realms
There is you who I really love
Because you taught me how to love
There is you who I shall never let go
And I must say that I LOVE YOU so
Finally, in my heart there is you
Because I really, really love you






..it's our 7th monthsari..hehe i'm so happy with him. Im so bless for having a boyfriend like him :))


--> HONEY QU <--

.HAPPY 7TH MONTHSARI :))i love you so much..THANK YOU for all the love, time, care, that you gave and you are giving to me..SALAMAT din sa pagintindi sa skin kahit minsan nagiging isip bata ako..SORRY sa mga nagawa ko na mali sayo dahil nagagawa mo pa rin ako patawarin.MAHAL NA MAHAL PO KITA. HUGZ AND KISSES :*

.♥ i LOve him so mUch ♥.

Is it wrong?...

To feel happy whenever I’m with you?
To keep on smiling whenever I see you?
To steal glances on every move you make?
To be glad for every breathe you take?
To tell you whatever it is that I feel?
To ask you if you really for real?
To like you if really there’s someone?
To love you even if I know I’m not the one?




Mali ba ang mahalin ko siya? Hindi di ba? Kasalanan ko ba kung mahulog ako sa kanya? [ang dami ko tanong.hehe xD]



Now it’s been 6 months and eleven days since Saul and I where together. Masasabi ko na rin na nagiging matatag na relationship naming. And regarding with matter, bakit kaya maraming naninira sa akin as his girlfriend? Am I not worth to have him? Why are they always pulling me down? Are they insecure about me? [haha..insecurities make them die.. wala ring gamot sa mga taong insecure.. hihi :D]
Well, salamat na din sa kanila dahil mas nagiging matatag kami.  Pero mahirap pa rin ipag isang tabi ang mga bagay-bagay tungkol dun. Hmmm. I don’t care..Kung dun sila Masaya sa paninira di ba? Bakit ko sila papakialaman.

Haaay..  Thankful ako dahil hindi siya naniniwala sa mga naninira sa akin. Super loyal siya. Marami nagsasabi na “I’m taking him for granted”, which is not true. I really love him. Siya ang best boyfriend ko. I’m really thankful kay GOD kasi si Saul yung binigay niya na boyfriend ko.


I want to grow old with him. I want to see him smile whenever he is sad. I want to wipe his tears whenever they are falling in his face. I want to hold his hand. I want to hug him and whisper to him how much I love him. I want to kiss his hand, his forehead, his lips. I want to give him the sweetest kiss.. [mwuuaahh.. :*] All I want is to be with him forever.


I love him soo much… ♥ ♥ ♥




♥hOney Qu

I love you so much. Salamat sa love, care, time, sa pag intindi mo sa akin at sa ugali ko, sa pagiging loyal, sa tiwala na binibigay mo sa akin. Maraming salamat sa lahat. Specially pinakilala mo sa akin si GOD. Hinding-hindi kta iiwan, pangako po. I will love you forever, till eternity.

I LOVE YOU DADDY.. hugs and kisses :*

♥ I'm yours...would you be mine? ♥

I’m yours

At first I ignore and tried to deny
Every time we talk, I tried to lie
I change direction each time you’re near
I don’t know what to do whenever you’re near


Every time you stare into my eyes,
I’m afraid for maybe everything are all lies
Because for you I don’t want to fall
That’s why I ignore you each time you call.


But now it’s over, I came to realize
Is it too late? Please hear my apologize
I don’t want to let go everything about you
And I take all risks just to be with you.


Now I’m yours, I want you to stay.
But do you still love me like you did yesterday?
And is it still me that your hears beats for?
Please don’t walk away ‘coz I want to love you more.





--> what a heck? why do i wrote this kind of poem?Hmmm.. Let me think..hahaha.. hindi ko din alam..inatake nanaman siguro ako ng kaimuhan ko..hehe xD..wala na rin ako magawa na ibang bago..hihihi:)) By tha way gusto ko lang po ipaalam sa inyo na super happy ako sa love life ko ngaun kahit parang medyo pang broken tong article na to..Sobrang saya ko with my boyfriend..Haaay ilang araw na lang monthsary na ulit namin,,Going stronger haha :x.Im so conteded with him..[sharing mode?]




Hon Qu

--> Advance happy monthsary po..thank you po sa love, care, understanding sa lahat po.Lalo lalo na pinakilala mo sa akin si God. Sobrang thankful ako sa kanya dahil ikaw yung binigay niya sa akin na boyfriend. I want to grow old with you. i Love you so much. I miss you alot. xOxO :*

I want you to know that "IM YOURS"

"PEN"

There are times, while I am sitting on benches in the Promenade, deep in thought. I can’t stop asking myself; “What is my purpose in this School?” Questions continuously revolve around my mind, like a thirst waiting to be quenched. Am I only just like one of those “common students” going to and from every minute, laughing, thinking, playing, to get and finish a degree? Am I only just like the others, paying their tuition fees every semester in the cashier’s office getting and realizing nothing after all? Or, am I someone who can contribute “little bits”, piece by piece from which everyone can benefit?

It is quite hard time for me to think of the answer for every question in my head. I am burdened by the thought that many students refuse to speak, and act, and even if they do, they balk at the slightest challenge against their stand. And realizing it, I said to myself that as a concern fellow, I can lend a help to make changes even in hushed way where everyone can hear the cry of my little voice.

It is my pen, and every moment I find its ballpoint rolling on every empty space of a paper as I write my draft, is as hard as lifting an object exponentially greater than my weight. It is a fact that one cannot tell what is his/her minds unless he/she chooses to prove its significance by exposing it and let others see. And I think that was my intention here. It is not saying things just to encourage others to follow what I am thinking, but to inform. And the rest is letting them interpret my thoughts on their own, then act the way they should.

And yes, I am certainly aware of the constant appraisals and criticisms that I, as a writer, will encounter every time my pen slides on the smooth surface of my outline- but that is normal. It is normal in the sense that pleasing everyone is not easy to achieve, because even a maximum of one’s effort may not be enough for it. And that’s the toughest part on my reality.

I may face burden but I am aware that I can manage all things. I know that I, together with my pen, am not alone in pursuing my objectives. I know that there is still a place where free and active minds are generated and nurtured till they find their own dexterity.
And as a student fond of knowledge and learning. I always do have a protective shield for facing trials in everyday’s challenging path. That is my purpose why I am here. That is me as a part of this school. It is my pen which symbolizes my aim as a voice constantly trying to elicit responses from the students trapped under a rule of silence. I must sat that a mark on the paper is enough when this calls for everyone to be more of what they are now.

And from now on, I am a pen. That is my worth…………

♥ my fiRst Love Letter ♥

♥ my fiRst Love Letter ♥

It’s April 05, 2009 when I received my very very first love letter (well it’s not a letter, it’s a card, hehe :p)….

I really love letters..super.. Specially when it is from your love ones. And I always keep them all. And I often read my letters before I sleep..

This letter is very special to me. It is from Saul Krisna, my boyfriend. When I was reading his letter I was really really touch[kilig to the bones]. This letter is his gift on our 4^th monthsary.

Here is the Letter:

Honey,

Happy 4^th monthsary!!! It’s been 147 days since I first met you and 122 days since nagging “tayo”. I do hope naging masaya ka all this time with me as your boyfriend kasi if you would ask me now if naging Masaya ako with you, isisigaw ko pa sa iyo na “Oo”.

Actually this is my first letter to you kaya kinakabahan ako (pagpasensyahan mo na if pangit ang handwritten ko) baka di mo ito magustuhan. Anyway gusto ko lang mag thank you sa iyo sa lahat ng bagay na ginawa mo for me. Thank you sa pagiging girlfriend, kaibigan, kakulitan, kaasaran, teacher, lover at kwentuhan. Mahal na mahal talaga kita. Alam kong madaming bese na kitang sinaktan ang I’m really sorry for that. I just hope and pray that sana magtagal tayo co’z if someday at nawala ka HINDI ko talaga kakayanin yun and besides wala na akong makikitang tulad mo… unique ka kasi. I LOVE YOU so much hon,as always be safe kasi I don’t want anything bad to happen to you… napaka importante mo kasi para sa akin.. and “Im Grateful Forever for the day you came into my life”…

Im so happy when I read it.. na touch talaga ako sobra.. ♥ ♥ ♥

Honey Qu,

Thank you sa binigay mo na letter I really appreciate it.. I’ll promise you that I will keep it forever.. Sorry dahil lagi kita inaaway.. Sana magtagal po tayo.. Sobrang mahal na mahal po kita.. Always be safe.. You’re the best boyfriend ever… I love you sOo much..xoxo.. ♥ ♥ ♥

I Let Go...

♀Moving On♀


My friend, it’s been a while since we’ve separated,
I still remember the last time that we talked,
It was the last time that we’ve been together.
But now we’ve apart from each other,
Maybe you thought I would be devastated.
No you’re wrong, absolutely wrong.
Cause I know in my heart, that life must go on
And I think life without you will still be the same,
It was just very simple even though you came.
But I’m proud to let you know,
That I can stay happy and be happy for you.
I want you to know
That I’m wiser and stronger now,
And somehow I endured pain
Whenever I see you alone
I no longer remember what you did to me,
I am not mad
The pain is no longer there
For I have forgiven you.
Because I’m much more contended
That I could proudly say that life has never ended
In fact I can do more things now in my own way,
Saying goodbye is no longer hard
As it used to be
And could say goodbye for now,
Cause I have to move on.

♫ ♥ Unrequited Love ♥ ♫

♫ ♥ Unrequited Love ♥ ♫

Love leads me to you

Where there are many roads to choose

Will I choose the rocky one

That will lead me to you?

Or the smooth sailing roads,

That will make me feel blue?

And finally I met the end with you

And I admit it makes me feel brand new

But wait a minute, there’s something

I didn’t know

We’re not destined to go together through

I’m like a broken mirror

Cos it’s really breaking

I’m like falling raindrops

Cos its truly aching

I’m like a flowing river and

I’m undeniably drowning

I like to be love by you

But absolutely you failed to do…

And now I have to kiss

The fact and make it last

That you will never be owned by me

Our path will never

Ever cross again

I have to look forward

To my own way to love………..

♥ My Lost Ångel ♥

♣"My Lost Ångel"♣

It’s January 22 when you interrupted me,

The day after, you introduced yourself to me,

You said you want to make friends with me

But for me it wasn’t that easy…

I doubted your personality

Thinking that you’re just tricking me,

Then, you persevered and tried to understand me,

We’ve been friends, then, one day you asked…

“Why can’t we be more than that?”

I’ve been speechless, don’t know what to say,

I haven’t heard it from any other man…

Ithought it was over

Though you question was not answered.

But day by day you asked me “why?”

Again and again you expected my reply…

Now it’s clear to see,

You already have feelings for me,

A love and care not for a friend only,

Co’s you wanted me to your lady…

On the darkest part of my life,

You’re there and helped me see the light,

You’re like an angel sent from God above,

You spread your wings and together we fly up high…

“My Love”, “My lady Angel”

That’s what you used to call me remember?

The songs for me you’ve dedicated,

In my heart where always played…

You’re happy now, because of me

That’s what you told me,

You added, you’re complete already

And for that, you’ve thanked me…

But one day, a disaster came…

Our relationship was tested in flame

We lose the fight like that of playing a game

And now, whom can we take the blame?

Is it the disaster that ruined our relationship?

Is it the two of us for we are so weak?

Is it the love which is not so deep?

Or the fate for what is destined to be?

Now, I’m in the midst of my drastic journey,

There’s no one to one accompany me…

Where are you my angel? Come back to your lady…

I’m down and weary, would you save me?

Why don’t you spread your wings?

So; I can still see you flying…

My Angel, Oh My Angel! Can you stop me from searching?

Come out from where you are hiding…

My Angel was just owed and not fully given

So; it’s about time for him to returned

Or maybe somehow, his wings had been broken…

And he’s lying safety in the arms of others heaven…

┼ winter in sorrow ┼

Winter in Sorrow

I was a writer and I write over and over. My poems, essays, and short stories, I dedicated it all for him. But, does he worth it? He promise to make a portrait of me but where is it? It was gone by the wind. Many contests, I failed to win. WHY? It’s because of him. The reason why he left still bothers me. He distracted my concentration; he was the root of my confusion and he was the reason of my immediate decision of leaving everything… my studies, my org., my friends and even my family. I want to go far away to escape from everything. I want to run out of these mess. I want to search for a new world wherein there’s nothing more that would remind me of him.

We have lots of memories during summer. He welcomed with a smile and left me with a cry. How could I stop myself from crying when deep inside my heart is still aching? It still hurts he said… “If you really love me, set me free.” Though it’s killing me, though it’s hard for me, I did it because of him.

Laugher in summer was replaced by a tear; love was turned to hatred and joy to sorrow. I’m beginning to forget him then in my peacefulness, he interrupted me once again. “Take care always, BESTFRIEND!” How come he had called me that way? “I don’t want to be your friend!” that’s my answer. “I can be the best out of love and can also be the worst out of it” I added. “Aren’t you happy that I’m still texting you?I thought you have accepted the truth.” He said.” I also thought I’ve forgiven you but I was mistaken.” I replied.” Hope lets just stay as friends. We can’t really work it out.” He said. Now, it’s clear to see. I remembered what my friend told me, “ Tears are meant for now but for tomorrow, it will all be gone by. One day, you’ll realize, you’re no longer in-love with him.’ How I hope …. When is that day that tears won’t fall once again? Questions left unanswered.I’m not insisting myself to him. I just want to left him know, it’s all or nothing! “If we’re not meant to be, well, I’m sorry …. We can’t be best friends again cause you might invite me on your wedding or have me as a godmother of your child. No! I won‘t be there! I would refuse everything!!!” “Don’t cry I’m not worth a tear. I hope you’ll find someone who will love you more than I did. Hope, you’ll be happy, too.” He said, that made me felt more embarrassed. Now, I made up my mind. I’ll take a revenge… He said,” I won’t go back to Manila co’s I want peace of mind. You’ll be hurt more if we’re going to see each other. ”If you really love me, go on with your life… You can’t love somebody if you don’t love your self. I have really love you before.” He concluded. He left me crying here… I won’t give him peace! I challenge him…” Somebody, when our roads crossed again, let’s see, Who will beg for love, who among us will be a loser?”It’s really hard for me to cope up with this feeling… love and hate collided. I love him much but if hating him is the only way to forget him, I WILL!

For me, his love was conditional-like what he did before, he said…’ If you love me, you’ll set me free.” And now, once again, he’s telling me,” If you love me, you must move on.” But how? Why he did ask me for that? Because he was sure, I’ll do it, because he was sure, I LOVE HIM? How selfish? How can I go on where I am right now? Where is the best way to take or the right path to follow? WHERE WILL I GO?

As time passed by, I realized, I shouldn’t be afraid of his ghost. I shouldn’t escape from it but leave it all behind for the future is within my reach. Yeah! I made up my mind, I’ll continue to struggle, I’ve taken and the fightI’ve started then , in the end, I’LL WIN!…

Like the change weather from summer to winter, I’ve changed my mind from leaving to staying. I won’t leave my studies, my org., my friends, and most of all my family. I won’t full out days for I won’t like to be awakened one day to regret what I’ve done with all my life. LIFE IS BEAUTIFUL, I shouldn’t waste it.

I’ll pursue my studies. Summer in love had ended, winter in sorrow has started. The cold wind is blowing against my face.

I have lived my life without him for 18 years and I have lived with him for just 1 year and 24 days. I’m sure, I can live without him! I will do it not because of him but because of me and because of myself.

I know, winter will also end and summer will start again. Sun will rise and I will feel the warmth of the air. Day will come; my wounds will be healed and another love will start to bloom soon. Not just for SUMMER, not just for WINTER but…FOREVER!

“mHiz-yHeL”o1-o9-08