1st time this year. :c

Yesterday. March 07, first Sunday of the month. Communion day. Hindi ako nakaatend ng service dahil maraming dapat gawin at tinanghali na rin ako ng gising.

--> First time this year hindi ako na attend ng service and it makes me feel so sad. Dapat na magpray ako para incoming namin na mga test at para magthank you sa lahat ng bagay. Ayon. hindi ko na rin macomplete lahat ng sunday this year na dapat na umatend ng service. :(

--> First time this year, Sunday na hindi kami magkasama ni bi'ep. Mag-isa lang siya umatend kahapon.

Grabe, sobrang lungkot ko talaga dahil dun sa dalawang bagay na yon. Hindi ako gaano nakapagconcentrate para magreview sa aming board exam( finals namin sa phil. history na akala namin ay dictation ulit katulad ng midterm. awa ng Diyos sinipa gumawa ng test paper si Ronqi :D ). Nag memorize pa ako ng speech namin sa retorika na supre haba and since ang topic ko naman ay about kay GOD madali ko iro namemorize. :)). Dapat parin maging thankful kasi marami naman nag encourage sa akin that day ang they are my CLASSMATES ( once in a blue moon lang sila kung mag encourage ng tao. :D kaya I'm thankful dahil isa ako sa mga nabahagian nila ng word ni God.)

Hope makapchurch na ako every Sunday.haay. next month pa tuloy ako makapagcommunion. :c

P.S

hon. salamat po sa love. Sorry kung inaway kita nung Saturday. Salamat dahil nagchurch ka kahit kaw lang po. mahal na mahal po kita sobra. salamat sa support na lagi mo ibinibigay. hindi po kita iiwan.. mua :*

we made it! :)

I don't like your play..



"I LOVE IT"

-Mrs. Delai Chua

JOB WELL DONE GUYZ..

salamat sa cooperation ng lahat.. :))

96.8

yan ang effort ng lahat :))
we're the highest! :D

it was our role playing of Dr. Jose Rizal's Life.. :))

" Ang akin lang.. ay sabihin mo ng hindi ako nagmumukhang tanga.. Para saan pa at tinawag mo ako na bestfriend?"

konting drama lan.. :))

Winter in Sorrow

I was a writer and I write over and over. My poems, essays, and short stories, I dedicated it all for him. But, does he worth it? He promise to make a portrait of me but where is it? It was gone by the wind. Many contests, I failed to win. WHY? It’s because of him. The reason why he left still bothers me. He distracted my concentration; he was the root of my confusion and he was the reason of my immediate decision of leaving everything… my studies, my org., my friends and even my family. I want to go far away to escape from everything. I want to run out of these mess. I want to search for a new world wherein there’s nothing more that would remind me of him.

We have lots of memories during summer. He welcomed with a smile and left me with a cry. How could I stop myself from crying when deep inside my heart is still aching? It still hurts he said… “If you really love me, set me free.” Though it’s killing me, though it’s hard for me, I did it because of him.

Laugher in summer was replaced by a tear; love was turned to hatred and joy to sorrow. I’m beginning to forget him then in my peacefulness, he interrupted me once again. “Take care always, BESTFRIEND!” How come he had called me that way? “I don’t want to be your friend!” that’s my answer. “I can be the best out of love and can also be the worst out of it” I added. “Aren’t you happy that I’m still texting you?I thought you have accepted the truth.” He said.” I also thought I’ve forgiven you but I was mistaken.” I replied.” Hope lets just stay as friends. We can’t really work it out.” He said. Now, it’s clear to see. I remembered what my friend told me, “ Tears are meant for now but for tomorrow, it will all be gone by. One day, you’ll realize, you’re no longer in-love with him.’ How I hope …. When is that day that tears won’t fall once again? Questions left unanswered.I’m not insisting myself to him. I just want to left him know, it’s all or nothing! “If we’re not meant to be, well, I’m sorry …. We can’t be best friends again cause you might invite me on your wedding or have me as a godmother of your child. No! I won‘t be there! I would refuse everything!!!” “Don’t cry I’m not worth a tear. I hope you’ll find someone who will love you more than I did. Hope, you’ll be happy, too.” He said, that made me felt more embarrassed. Now, I made up my mind. I’ll take a revenge… He said,” I won’t go back to Manila co’s I want peace of mind. You’ll be hurt more if we’re going to see each other. ”If you really love me, go on with your life… You can’t love somebody if you don’t love your self. I have really love you before.” He concluded. He left me crying here… I won’t give him peace! I challenge him…” Somebody, when our roads crossed again, let’s see, Who will beg for love, who among us will be a loser?”It’s really hard for me to cope up with this feeling… love and hate collided. I love him much but if hating him is the only way to forget him, I WILL!

For me, his love was conditional-like what he did before, he said…’ If you love me, you’ll set me free.” And now, once again, he’s telling me,” If you love me, you must move on.” But how? Why he did ask me for that? Because he was sure, I’ll do it, because he was sure, I LOVE HIM? How selfish? How can I go on where I am right now? Where is the best way to take or the right path to follow? WHERE WILL I GO?

As time passed by, I realized, I shouldn’t be afraid of his ghost. I shouldn’t escape from it but leave it all behind for the future is within my reach. Yeah! I made up my mind, I’ll continue to struggle, I’ve taken and the fightI’ve started then , in the end, I’LL WIN!…

Like the change weather from summer to winter, I’ve changed my mind from leaving to staying. I won’t leave my studies, my org., my friends, and most of all my family. I won’t full out days for I won’t like to be awakened one day to regret what I’ve done with all my life. LIFE IS BEAUTIFUL, I shouldn’t waste it.

I’ll pursue my studies. Summer in love had ended, winter in sorrow has started. The cold wind is blowing against my face.

I have lived my life without him for 18 years and I have lived with him for just 1 year and 24 days. I’m sure, I can live without him! I will do it not because of him but because of me and because of myself.

I know, winter will also end and summer will start again. Sun will rise and I will feel the warmth of the air. Day will come; my wounds will be healed and another love will start to bloom soon. Not just for SUMMER, not just for WINTER but…FOREVER!

“mHiz-yHeL”o1-o9-08

kindly listen to this song..hehe.. tnx.. GOD BLESS..

P.S

pasenya.. wala connect sa val. yung post ko.. and repost lan po ito..wala kasi ako maisip next time na lang ako babawi..hehe.. pero hindi po ako emo sa hearts day..aa..

Happy Valentines Day po.. :))

appreciation lang po.. :(

Haaay..Salamat natapos na rin yung scrap book na ginagawa namin ni bi'ep..Kamustahin niyo naman yun..Isang 10 pages na scrap book ginawa namin in just 3 days. Actually class project yun and since buzy ang lahat sa paggawa ng scrip para sa play namin na Rizal ako na rin ang nagpresenta gumawa. Kahit mahirap at kulang sa oras pinilit namin gawin dahil hindi ko naman akalain na friday(ngaun) yun ipapasa, ang pagkakaalam namin ay next month pa. So, wala ng dahilan para maging tamad, nagpasya na rin si Bi'ep na tumulong. Tinipid namin ang 680 mula sa contribution at 200 mula sa aking bulsa(kaya nagun pulubi na ako).

Ayon..tuesday hiningi ko yung mag usb nila para sa mga picture nung nagpunta kami sa Luneta at Intramuros.Wednesday nag-edit kami at nag paprint at bumili na rin ng ibang materials.Thursday nag edit ulit para sa cover at bumili ng kulang na gamit,sinimulan na ni bi'ep yung paggawa at hindi siya natulog at since hindi ako pwede matulog sa kanila nagpunta ako sa kanila ng maaga. 6 pa lang nandun na ako. kulang pa ng 3 pages yung scrap book at kulang na kami sa oras kaya sabi ko hindi na ako papasok na 2 subjects.

Sa wakas 10 am natapos namin lahat ng dapat gawin. 10:30 ng pumasok ako. Takte nag quiz pala kami sa Logic at Rizal.(huhu..absent na nga wala pang Quiz..)

Pagdating ko sa room inibot ko kay Roxing yung scrap book dahil titignan daw muna nila.. Ayun.. nagustuhan naman nila at maganda daw.

Pero may 3 sa mga classmate ko ang galit na galit sa akin.. Si Ate Jane, Michael at Joseph. Wala silang pictures dun sa mga places na pinutahan namin pero my solo pics sila dun sa 1st page. Wala silang binigay na usb o kahit ano para pagkuhaan ng mag pictures nila. Tapos ganito yun:

ako: Ate jane my itatanong ako sayo..
ate Jane: lumayo ka nga sa akin at huwag mo ako kausapin..

After ko marinig yun hindi ko alam gagawin ko. Pagpasok namin sa room bigla na lang tumulo luha ko. Galit siya sa akin dahil wala nga silang pictures dun. Hindi ko naman kasalanan kung bakit wala sila doon humingi ako sa kanila wala silang ibinigay. Hanggang dumating na sa point na kung ano ano na yung sinabi sa akin..Grabe that time nung kanakausap nila ako hindi ko mapigilan na hindi umiyak.Akala ko matutuwa sila sa ginawa namin na pinagpuyatan at pinagpaguran. Akala kom kahit Thank you may maririnig ako pero wala. Parang gumuho talaga ang mundo ko kanina sa sobrang sakit nung sinabi niya.


Grabe talaga yung nangyari. I thought it was A Job Well Done.. pero hindi pala..

Sana kahit papaano naappreciate nila yung effort namin sa pagtapos nung project na yun.



@ Hon..

salamat po pala sa pagtulong mo sa akin para magawa yung project mo. Sorry rin kasi dahl dun 2 gabi ka wala tulog,. salamat po talaga sa mga effort mo.. Iloveyou soo much.. sana maging ok ka na.. mua

Define LOVE

Perfect Love is…

Slow to suspect – quick to trust

Slow to condemn – quick to justify

Slow to offend – quick to defend

Slow to expose – quick to shield

Slow to reprimand – quick to forebear

Slow to demand – quick to give

Slow to provoke – quick to conciliate

Slow to hinder – quick to help

Slow to resent – quick to forgive

TRUE LOVE….

Is like two deep rivers that meet and merge, intertwining completely into one, then flowing on together. The joys, happiness, and sorrows of each become the joys, happiness, and sorrows of each other. TRUE LOVE cannot be hurried , but once unselfishly rooted, it will grow forever.

LOVE..

Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres. Love never fails.

-1 Corinthians 13:4-8

LOVE IS GOD :)

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..aun..kaya ganyan ang akin post ay dahil alam niyo naman ay malapit na ang araw ng puso..hehe.. bukas ay Feb. 1 na.. malapit na talaga ang Valentines Day.. :))..
more more kakiligan nanaman.. LOVE IS in the air.. :D

at wala rin ako ibang maisip na ipost kaya ito na lang..hehe


BTW.. TO ALL BLOGGERS:..

kaya pala hindi nakakapagpost si bi'ep ay dahil siya po may sakit.. may sipon a ubo po siya..at tinamaan rin ng KATAm.. (katamaran magpost..hehehe)..un lan po.. GBU..


@ hon..

pagaling ka po..ilove you soo much..imiss you na..


p.s.. bloggers..

DEFINE LOVE :)) hehe..katuwaan lang po..

♥ i Lurve it!...

what a wonderful day.. :)).. Grabe last Saturday January 23 was a tiring day yet so memorable..hehe..Maraming happy moments ang nangyari with my friends and syempre kasama rin si bi'ep. :))

Nag punta kmi sa Fort Santiago/Intramuros. Para yon sa rizal namin na Subj.. Nung una akala namin magiging boring yun..hehe..pero hindi pala..

More more walk kami..sobrang kakapagod pero masaya..marami naman kami nalaman kahit papaano..hehe.. Kasi pag prof ko nagtuturo hindi naman buhay ni Rizal ang tinuturo kundi buhay niya..hehe [Chua's Life..joke.. :p]..

After naming pumunta sa fort Santiago next destination is ano pa ba.. kundi Luneta Park.. Pumunta lang kami para panoorin este pakinggan kung paano pinatay si Rizal at yung mga tao na huli niya nakasama..

"Reparen Apunten Fuego"

Ang after that yung matagal na naming binabalak puntahan.. ang SUNSET sa MANILA BAY.. .. Grabe ang saya ko talaga nung nakita ko yung sunset at pinapanood ko lumubog ung araw kasama yung taong mahal ko..kakilig sobra..First time namin patrehas makita yung sunset kaya super happy ako. At ang nakakatuwa pa doon ay lumayo yung area of responsibilities namin..haha.. nakararating na kami ng manila together before kasi hanggang malalapit na lugar lang kami..:))

Sobrang saya nung araw na iyon kahit nakakapagod sa sobrang layo ng nilakad namin..pero ayos lang dahil kasama ko naman siya.. :D Sulit naman lahat ng pagod..at kahit medyo ginabi na kami ng uwi..hehe.. sana maulit..:))

i'm sorry

Based on experience eh napakabigat na pasanin ang di pag-papatawad. Aninong hindi matakbuhan kapag inalagaan mona nang husto. Yayakap sa iyo na parang tuko.. [aba!ryhme pa ah1 sabi na at may kinabukasan akong maging writer]

Siryoso, lam mo bang you did a greater damage to yourself pag hindi ka nagpatawad?[huwaw!english un ah!] Failure to forgive is a devastating form of self –funishment.[English again,hehe]..lason yan na kakalat sa buo nating pagkatao na aapekto sa lahat ng factor ng buhay natin..asido na tutunaw sa mga mabubuti nating pag-uugali.. take note, masakit at mahapdi ang repercussions.. lalo’t nag-uugat na sa puso, mahirap ng palakulin..

Mahirap oo, especially when someone commits a terrible offense against you. Tapos alam mo ba yung feeling na parang may bubulong-bulong pa sa iyo para i-entice ka na gumanti..susunod-sunod sa iyo na parang alingawngaw…

Natutunan ko lang magpatawad nung matutunan ko kung ano nga ba ang “pagpapatawad’..share ko sa inyo itong nakasulat sa journal ko..

“Forgiveness is the willingness to give up your resentment toward someone who has wronged you, regardless of how serious or painful that wrong that might have been. In other words, you renounce any desire to get even. We can identify three elements to forgiveness: to give up resentment about the wrong; to give up resentment towards the wrongdoer; and to give up plans for retaliation. Forgiveness is more than just saying some words; it must come from the heart. Unforgiven, on the other hand, is a deliberate mindset to do opposite-to resent the wrong and the wrongdoer, and to seek revenge.

In Ephesians 4:31, Paul associates unforgiveness with bitterness, wrath, anger, clamor, slander and malice.

Balansehin mo muna ang sitwasyon kasi mahirap magsisi sa huli..

Naku! mas mahirap ang regret..sinasabi ka sa iyo..

Wag ka naming basta babanat na…..

“It’s too late to apologize..it’s too laaaaaate”

Eto, siryoso na talaga.. May panyo ka ba jan? Alam niyo kasi, iisa lang ang sagot sa dilemma na yan. Ihain mo sa pananalig sa Diyos ang problema dahil wala na iba pang pwedeng umitindi sa iyo kundi siya. Isunbong mo sa kanya lahat-lahat. He can heal all kinds of wounds. He knows. He understands. Okey.. Somebody wronged you. Let God sort that out. He is just. In time, even the one who wronged you will stand before God in judgment. Your responsibility is simply to let go of all resentment and let God. God works in ways we can’t see. Hindi madaling magpatawad. Yan ang tanong mo hindi ba? Pero kahit hindi madali, matutulungan ka niya. Manalangin ka. Prayers can move mountains.

“If you forgive those who sins against you, your heavenly father will forgive you, but if you refuse to forgive others, your father will not forgive your sins.”

Matthew 6:14-15

♥ i will be still..

still-hillsong

Hide me now
Under your wings
Cover me
within your mighty hand

When the oceans rise and thunders roar
I will soar with you above the storm
Father you are king over the flood
I will be still and know you are God

Find rest my soul
In Christ alone
Know his power
In quietness and trust

♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥

GOD BLESS TO ALL. KEEP THE FAITH BURNIN :))

I LOVE YOU LORD :)

♥ hAppy mii :))